New Streams of Life (11)
New Streams of Life (11)
After seemingly countless rainy days the sun finally came out this morning.
Whilst waiting for boiling water to make tea, I sat at the staircase eating an apple. The sun slanted through the window beside the front door. Suddenly I realized how much I had missed the sunshine.
Walking on the churchyard farm in the sun is always a nice feeling. Even puddles
stopped bothering me. Along the slopping stony path my friend and I headed for
the beach while talking away. It has been settled that building the garage extension for our stock became the most urgent thing now. My friend’s father failed
to keep his promise of handling the extension task. So we decided to go on without his assistance.
Sometimes I don’t understand my friend’s father honestly speaking. It seems to
me that he has so many unfulfilled dreams in his life. You could often hear him
say “I dream of baking in the sun on my boat, going fishing whenever I feel like to and there will be no worries...” He already owned a boat. But instead of
taking it into the sea, he let it rot away in the garden with the excuse he doesn’t have time for it. I always believe that if you don’t have the time for your dream today, it is unlikely you will have the time for it in future.
Sometimes it is kind of depressing to have people of his sort besides you really
. They would find excuses for things they don’t have the guts and right attitude to achieve. I remember in the kitchen whenever we had a talk, my friend’s father always told me that my friend and I are doing something that he had wished to achieve all his life. But I don’t know if he realized that how MANY dreams (wishes in other words) he had in his mind when he is nearly sixty now.
I mean if you find you are sixty and still have dreams that you had when you were a teenager left unfulfilled, wouldn’t you start to stop and ponder what the real reason was? I would think if you have too many wishing thoughts simmering back in your mind when you are sixty, it was you who is to blame, and it was you who has made them unfulfilled. For my friend’s father, it seems he has made himself too occupied to stop and look back his life. At weekends when he said “After a harsh week I think I deserve a few bottles of beer, a couple of cigarettes,
and leaning back and relaxing”, he could have altered his attitude and done something different. For coming to think of it, one only deserves what he deserves.
Anyway maybe I have no right to judge his case. But personally I don’t want myself to be someone of that sort. I don’t want to put something and somebody else
to blame if I haven’t achieved anything. If my friend and I can’t rely on his
father to sell his two mini cars and build the extension, we will have to think
of a contingency plan. We can’t let him get him in the way and not do anything
about it. Also my friend’s mother keeps indicating that my friend and I should
go out to find some part time whilst waiting for the stock to arrive. I absolutely hate it.
In her opinion we are squandering away our time. I can’t tell her that no stocks will magically sell if you don’t plan and prepare. Neither can I tell her right now plenty of people are still finding my freelance website and want me to be
their business interpreter. So why should I, after making the decision to make
the business happen and forgoing those handsome interpretation opportunities, go
for negligible offers at the job centre? I wouldn’t learn anything from it, except for wasting my time. If I only want an income in my life, wouldn’t it be better off for me to just stay in China. But I guess that was the price your pay
for running a family start-up business. Lots of extra to deal with.
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