trapped in lovelorn affairs
<continue>This afternoon, I had a date with her to play roller-skate together with some other classmates.She can't master it at all, though I'm also a weak player, I'm competent to lead her rinking around the track. We stopped playing until we were wholly wore out, standing on the edge of the track for a little rest,it was a little dark then. We chatted there, enjoying the soft wind and the misty moon...I feel a little romantic....But to my great surperise, she turned to me and said:"there's no girl loving you, and there won't be any, because you treat me too good. The girls loving you will take it for granted that I were your girlfrned." On hearing such words, I stood numb, and the smile on my face vanished soon. I was really puzzled (even shocked)by what she just said. I trid my best to clear the meaning, but I couldn't. My mind was blank, my hands became colder and colder, my heart was trembling............What was the meaning? Why did she say so? Am I incompetent to be her boyfriend?If the answer is definite, treating her good is also my fault? I dare not think further, rinking away into darkness. On the way back to the dorm, she asked me whether I was angry with what she had said. I said "it's nothing". At the parting time, I never gave her any glance, thinking:" I treat her good just for nothing, but is it wrong?"...... I wandered back, so it was with my thinking....
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